blAck Apple

I am scared

2011-12-30T00:35:00.000+08:00

[12:33:25 AM] Charissa:

Hebrews 11:8, says, "By faith Abraham, when he was called to go out into a place which he should after receive for an inheritance, obeyed; and he went out, not knowing whither he went." Abraham first exercised saving faith and the evidence of his having saving faith was that he trusted what God said. God told him to leave his country, his relatives and his father's house and go to a land that He would show him. Abraham's faith was tested and proven in that he did what God said. He showed his faith, by putting his trust in the Lord, and acting upon God's word.

Abraham's life was changed! His trust in God set him on a new course for his life. It is that way for one who believes today and receives eternal life by believing God and trusting in God's son the Lord Jesus Christ. The believer is set on a new road. The old road, marked by a life of sin and self serving, is abandoned! The new road is one of believing, obedience and serving God, by serving others.

So trust in God

if he wanted you to go for a good reason

he would make it possible

Sigh

2011-12-04T12:26:00.002+08:00

I regretted posting that pic.

It doesn't mean anything though.

U r just like her. both same. like father like daughter I guess?

but I'm your daughter too! but oh well, in that case,

definitely exclude me, I'm proudly to say that.

Because I ain't like you both,

when in good mood, u r nice,

when in bad mood, u r TERRIBLE HORRIBLE,

worst than a DEVIL.

I don't get you both seriously,

to YOU,

it is a case of bully,

not a sister figure at all,

whatever u say,

u r fucking mean,

I guess that's the reason why u have not find any boyfriend yet?

or maybe I should say because u don't have boyfriend that's why you r behaving like this?

pathetic.

U wanna say I'm being mean here,

well yes,

at least I don't say any fucking mean words to u,

like how u did to me

I take in all, only until I cannot take it.....whereby the limit actually quite high.

open the room door loudly and open the lights,

just to scold me for not putting the stuffs back,

oh I'm sorry, really,

because I totally forgot bout it,

but doesn't mean u have to be this mean!

u know what is case of bully?

THIS IS.

u know the feelings or not?

U WILL NEVER KNOW.

Imagine sleeping half way, suddenly frightened by all these,

its definitely worse than NIGHTMARE.

Is worse than u being disturbed by ghosts every night.

Eh maybe those ghost feelings u have are 'people' who trying to scare u on behalf of me? :)

poor girl.

I will respect another sis,

I will say thank you to her,

why?

Because she is being the best among u all,

despite the situation she is in now,

but she has the most IQ compare to u all,

even though she earn lesser money,

but to me,

I will definitely take care of her in the future even if I'm not capable of,

because she is the one I will say thank you to, to whatever she do, sincerely from my heart.

and to u,

why did u have such bad temper?

U don't understand....

U know I rmb a lot of things,

and if I still rmb things,

that because all those things leave scars in my heart.

U promised to give me reward in cash when I get 5As' above for my SPM

but I get watches from u,

who says I want watches?

I ask u why watches, its suppose to be cash

u angry,

u reply me back saying that 3 watches cost them how much,

but I seriously don't care,

whatever good grade AA...AAAA whatever it is,

how authentic they look,

do u think I can afford to wear Chanel watches?

Cost you more than 50k (authentic ones)?

You even think not to come for my graduation in US,

why can afford chanel watches? <-- u think people believe a?

and u think I wanna wear a? -.-

btw, all three of them are dead now, displaying there...

seriously,

give me cash, not watches,

besides, make up your promises,

I don't care u promise me when u're drunk or what,

its still a promise.

cry myself to sleep for 3 hours at least the day before,

eyes are so tired the next day I woke up, oh wait, not next day, is the same day cause I slept at 8am though.

Since young,

there's never a supportive family figures at home

only from friends.

I walk out of the house to pursue what I want,

you say I'm rebellious,

U know what is rebellious?

Tsk Tsk Tsk.

I always wanted my parents to take my report card,

to listen from teacher about how good their daughter is,

as the only daughter who study hard and get so many As,

I'm definitely proud of it,

but now, I guess I study on behalf of myself,

for the sake of my own future,

to earn my own fucking money,

to tell you all,

this is the child that u all forgotten off,

but hey guess what, she is now successful, with the help of all your "help" (money, and in-supportive characters)

to take report cards, but to u, u find it unnecessary,

"oh, what they will say? isnt it the same thing? these subjects are good these subjects are not, and good luck"?

ahhar ! u only go for a few ones, ur elder daughters but not mine,

how would u know?

U leave me alone the first day of primary school with sister who supposed to take care of me,

but she rather respect our uncle to take care of his son than me

leaving me alone,

when I'm actually so clingy,

when I'm actually so afraid,

but I have to pretend,

pretend not to cry like a kindergarten kid,

I hide my tears, and wipe them away,

pretend to be strong,

make friends by myself at the age of 7,

where are you all?

G O N E.

in my heart?

u all never stand a place in it.

U all give me a very bad childhood.

I really do not have a good childhood,

I do not have toys,

I do not ask for anything,

I don't know why.....guess I'm brought up that way,

not to ask for anything,

not to burden you all,

hey, seriously, I really think I'm a good child.

Even the Barbie doll, the only toy that belongs to mine,

I kept it till now,

because it means a lot when u remember to buy it for me

and oh, is sister ask me to tell you that,

if not I guess there wouldn't be any Barbie doll exist,

wouldn't be any toys that belongs to me,

and by that time, I shall declare I have no toys since young.

I really think I have a bad childhood,

thought the older the grow I will feel better,

but guess not.

Whenever I see toys,

I get really excited.....pathetic.

I never get respected by u.

or by u

U say why I have to celebrate friends' birthday,

U think is the same thing, every month celebrate each friend's birthday....

U don't know the meaning to it,

U don't know how people like me will feel to have people celebrate for me,

U don't know the feeling of being very blissful

that's why u do not have friends.

that's why u will tears when we celebrate your 50th birthday!

see?

pathetic.

To me,

I guess only friends are much important to me,

they know me better than u all do,

they don't judge.....they are there when I'm down.

Now what?

I have to be home by 12? for this one month time I CANNOT GO OUT?

LU SIAO A?!

-.-

I only have less than a month time to go out with friends,

because I really think,

the future is unpredictable,

I might come back, and might not.

Thinking bout the cold family here,

I rather be in US even though is a dead town, but at least I have friends, :)

thinking bout the freedom I have,

to expand my skills,

to be able to cook,

definitely not this house because everybody have OCD,

to learn a new dish or to bake,

is equals to doing some criminal stuffs....-.- WHY SO SERIOUS?

and you still want to say why your daughters never wanna help u all?

well, we are all BORN THIS WAY,

not to serve,

because even though I did,

I clean,

but you only remember the only time I did not clean one stuffs and never praise me for others,

you think I'm behaving like a kid who needs praising all the time,

but seriously,

that's the way. =)

reinforcement, I learn it in psychology class by the way....

aiya I'm lazy to check grammatical or any typo error,

I'm lazy like that,

because you all don't know how many sleepless nights I have and u can go ahead and tell people I love to sleep,

yea yea yea, true! really! I love to sleep, and I know you love to CURSE!

blablabla.

the tag is gona be "feelings" instead of "family", because family is supposed to be something happy but not like this.

I can be a good mother

2011-11-27T16:28:00.007+08:00

(picture from: http://traveling-piont.blogspot.com/2011/03/hong-kong-skyline-pictures.html)

Suddenly have a thought of wanting my proposal to be in Hong Kong. LOL.

I just dream a lot

I IMAGINE A LOT.....

So I imagine myself in Hong Kong,

The romantic and modern city

whereby I was left alone by my bf (I do not have one, so now u can see how fascinating my imagination is, no bf = got bf, lol)

It was at night...

I was shopping alone...

to every shop, the owner will pass a stalk of rose.

until I get 100 (maybe before 100 I will be freaked out, unless those owners have a very good reason to convince me, like erm....they do that to every tourist? hehe)

I was freaked out and so I call my bf

and suddenly, he appeared with 1000 roses and kneel down on one knee....

taking our the diamond or non diamond ring and ask "Will you marry me"

I Laugh and cry from happiness and say yes.....

(ok now imagine I'm in my autumn clothing, the weather is slightly cold,

So when I talk, I cry, I breath, there's vapour coming out from my mouth,

and I have scarf wrapping around my neck....

wearing grey gloves, covering my mouth, and non stop nodding my head :)

SEE....my imagination....can u imagine?)

So yeah, he put on the ring for me,

we hug....and suddenly fireworks OUT! :)

Wheee :)

Ok....

the end :) go back to my thesis...BOOooooooo

hey wait, my title is about "I can be a good mother"

Ok, so lets continue,

were also imagining myself having a baby..

aww......She/he will be my precious....

I just think I can be a good mother

because until this age,

I'm still hoping to have a younger sibling,

so imagine if I have child after 4, 5, 6, 7, 8 years?

HEHE.......I think Gen Y people can be super cool parents eh ? :)

OK REALLY THE END. tata

I like it

2011-11-20T01:16:00.002+08:00

I like it when you are the one who always ask me where am I

I like it when you are the one who always ask me where am I going

I like it when you are the one who always ask me what am I doing

I like it when you are the one who always being so caring

I like it when you are the one who always make the move first

I like it when you are the one who knows what am I thinking

I like it when you are the one who knows I'm not happy/happy

I like you.

but everything seems fake.

no, wrong, rephrase.

everything CAN BE fake.

because they are just so wonderful.

So beautiful that I don't really believe they happened in this world.

but thank you for all the effort you have made/make.

Hope is REAL.

Hope I'm thinking too much.

Hope I really deserve all these.

i always think n it happens

2011-11-06T05:46:00.001+08:00

I always think u r too good for me

and im so afraid that u will leave me one day

to prevent from being too sad

i always have thoughts of u leaving me

leaving me

and you really left.

To the C

2011-11-06T05:36:00.001+08:00

i KNOW..

seems like i dont show my appreciation

but im really thankful to u

calling me up from Aus

asking whether im ok

checking me out

sorry for not talking to u for so long

but i just wanna say,...Thank you.

flow

2011-11-06T05:14:00.000+08:00

so they just flow down.. uncontrollable.

u ask me why

I think I have lotsa reasons why

but I feel confused.

I don't know.

No Attention?

2011-11-04T03:57:00.002+08:00

If you really want attention from them so you are closer to them...

its ok

but if you do that and you forget about me

that is not ok.

I don't want to say much,

after all I still don't know you well despite we say we are best friend.

but it hurts much when I'm not included in it. that thing.

I only see happiness

2011-11-03T01:03:00.005+08:00

today, don't know why,

I feel the feeling of "just-break-up"

when I first break up,

all I see is happy couples

all I can think is "aww, please appreciate one another, even though you both quarrel or think one another is not the person you want, but think of those people who just broke up, who can't be together to the person they love...quarrel? that's like the super small matter, most important is that you both still have one another"

I see their gfs' their bfs', all I feel is...."I don't care why you will fall in love with them, but all I know is that they are very lucky, you yourself too!"

Sigh, I did not wait until I lose him only I want to appreciate him

I appreciate him all the time, ok maybe sometimes a bit mean.

:,)

It's ok

Everything has come to an end.

Relationship, friendship or whatever.

Don't ask me why.

All I know is, I will still be ok.

That's me, bLack appLe

Break down

2011-11-01T05:06:00.002+08:00

要崩溃了

已经崩溃了

surveys all a mess! people did not read instructions carefully and i need to ask them to amend..and also....if i cant contact them...I fill in the blanks myself. <-- this is so not my principle...

ppl say "do 50% of ur surveys la...takan u wanna find 200 ppl meh"

but i just dont do that...i just wan the REAL REAL RESULTS.....

but now? :( amending surveys are so tiring... :(

GOD.

I Just want SPACE

2011-10-30T21:22:00.002+08:00

DON't know why im so mother fucking pissed!!!

stayover friend's house come back...found my cupipi, porcupi and little blanket on the floor

WHY?

because cousin n bf stayover my house...

and my sister din ask my permission just let them sleep the room

WHY?!!!

omgggg im so angry that im crying now.

why is it whoever come over my house must sleep in my room and my bed?!!!!!!!

that is my space

ohmygod.

now i know why dogs always pee to mark their territory!!!

I shall fucking pee on my fucking bed mother fuckers!

I fucking hate visitors!!!! fucking hateeeeeeeeeeeeeee....don't come my house ....don't fucking come my house unless i fucking like u!!!

This feeling is kinda KILLING ME

2011-10-28T02:58:00.005+08:00

well, you acting this way.

is it because im not taking any subjects? i seldom go to college? we are not in the same class anymore? and we are like not close anymore?

why a? why?

this feeling is killing me softly, silently.

I did try to always relate anything in my life to u...

Tag u in facebook, talk to u,

but i feel that ur reply....not that HYPER anymore.

me thinking too much? yes no? :,(

and also you,

why will end up this way?

I just want everything to be good. can?

Just a test

2011-10-27T03:35:00.002+08:00

play this personality test on FB. find it very interesting/accurate.

有你在的地方一定有欢笑，你善良，调皮，任性，霸道与贴心。你看起来活泼好动

但实际内心深处，你有些自卑而自负，你希望自己能把事情做到最好，你很在乎别人

对你的评价，你的性格像小孩，单纯直接，情绪化，喜怒哀乐写在脸上，你没有心

机，但也缺少些自我保护的能力，你表面看来很容易相处，但想要走进你的内心世界

其实并不容易，你需要人家的鼓励，包容，宠爱和肯定，其实你也常常自我反省，你

希望自己能做到起码80%的完美，但你似乎没那个毅力，所以你的情绪变化无常，一

定是被这些因素困扰的。

As a guy

2011-10-26T16:25:00.001+08:00

I hate things about guys...

thingS

but the main thing i hate is when they can't speak PROPERLY

like properly!

pronounce properly...

don't mumble...

don't act cute

Speak like a MAN

NOT a BOY

and i realize i can be super mean to people who speak like that...

call me while you are still sleeping or whatever...

can't speak properly...

and i hate to use my full concentration to listen to people speaking like that...I will go BERSERK!

and I will be super straightforward and mean...for example

"I don't want to talk to people who cant even speak properly, go continue and sleep"

HOHOHOHO.....

seriously, really cannot take guys who can't speak properly, who mumble....who trying to be like Jay Chow/Chou...

so ya :)

Suck it up!

2011-10-12T05:12:00.002+08:00

hey suck it up.

I find that you are kinda weak.

you want it but you don't want it

you say it like its so easy but you can't even do it.

WEAK.

not you....

but you.

Different way to start my October

2011-10-03T01:26:00.002+08:00

1. First time car accident,

2.First time phone got stolen, well, i don't think stolen is a good word, is my fault for being careless and letting others having the chance to take my lime green angel iphone3 away!

3.My last hamster, died.

hmm...life is....hmm......

just be tough.

Abbie Sister Wedding

2011-08-29T18:27:00.003+08:00

So continue from "My Best Friend's Wedding"....

The moment the father hold the bride walking down the aisle towards the groom....

I can imagine my sister walking there with my dad.

I BET MY WHOLE FAMILY WILL BE TEARING....

I wouldn't say is tears of joy...

instead tears of reluctant....

as we will miss her so much and she is finally married and will stay in Germany for the rest of her life and we would not see each other much like we used to .....staying under the same roof, quarrel laugh smile and chat....

So I hope the story does not end that way (everybody tears), instead, all of us SMILE.

So I learn that

2011-08-29T18:14:00.005+08:00

=) That day, which is on the 24th August, went to sleepover Sook Yan's place.

Watched "My Best Friend's Wedding"

I learn a lesson, if you love someone, then move fast, but not as fast as 1 month knowing each other then get together. What I'm trying to say is that people who are so close together usually won't end up marrying each other but rather to someone they've just met.

So do "500 days of Summer".

In "My Best Friend's Wedding", the guy and the girl has been best friend since 9 years ago. The guy loves the girl, but the girl dislikes lovey dovey story or even hugging in the public. Right before she turns 28, she is eagerly waiting for the guy to marry her as they have this promise thingy regarding if any one of them are not married by the age of 28 then they will marry each other.

Well, the guy called her a week before she turns 28, telling her he is getting married.

The girl then realize she actually in love with him. Come on, 9 years only she realize? Appreciate him before its too late. See now, toooo late.

Despite the girl told the guy she loves him, he still chooses the bride he is going to married.

I wonder why.

They know each other so much! Why the bride not the best friend?

So? Appreciate before its too late and also people rather choose someone they don't really know much than people they know well enough...

WHY A? STUPID.

Don't they know knowing each other well is better than not knowing each other well? No wonder divorce rate so high.

Never Been Like This

2011-08-29T18:04:00.002+08:00

So my senior project 5 topics, include descriptions, type of research and journals are due on the 17th August.

I emailed my lecturer on the 25th about me going to Europe trip and unable to attend any discussion sessions with her.

she replied : ".........Nicole, I have not heard from you, in fact I thought you dropped the course. Please submit the 5 topics via email with descriptions like I asked everyone else in the Facebook page. It was due on last Wed. I suggest you read the details & the comments & posts there."

MAMA MIA. I was late for a week plus. So I went to Jo's place and asked for her help. Submitted the proposal on 27th.

What can I say? Indulge myself too much in party lifestyle...not really party....but my party definition is everyday must go out.....to somewhere.....and resulted I did not even know there's a due date for my proposal.

31st night I'm leaving here for my 2 weeks Europe trip. I better settle my topic before I leave.

Today suppose to go Uni to find journals, but it was alread 4.40pm and the Uni is closed.

Basically I left like 1 day to do it.

MAMA MIA.

Can I do it? :( Uni is not open for me to use the computers to find journals like what my lecturer wants me to.

MACAM MANA?

=( Disaster.

Before my semester break I was like so confidence "I'm so gona find my topic, read all the journals, so when I'm back from Europe trip I won't be panic".

Now? -.- MATI KONG KIAO.

Break Up season

2011-08-03T03:10:00.004+08:00

I think there's always this season.....

for break up

recently, so many break ups......

I think its just like a test.....

to see who can pass it...

Those who survive from it....

Will appreciate each other more....

but doesn't mean they will not have to go through another test.....

Those who didn't.....

Doesn't mean they will die..

They will move on....

they have to.

but it depends on themselves.

some will stay at the same place for some time....

be it days, months, years....or maybe the body move on but the spirit is still there....

they themselves will know.....

Life still has to go on.....

Just cherish life...

as we only live once.

(OHMY it rhymes!)

we fall, we hurt....we crawl...we walk...we run.....

this is life.

we love, we hate, we cry, we wipe off the tears....we smile....we laugh....we learn....

Just learn to be free...

FREE.....

that's only when you can love someone.....truly.

-Nicole-

ps: proud of myself wei :) haha. I can type such an inspiring post. :P haha.

Am I strong? or just busy?

2011-08-01T01:32:00.009+08:00

I don't know anymore.

but I think.....I think I am strong :)

27th July 2011: a night to remember

This picture is damn epic right? :) Alvina monkey butt jumping there! super FUNNY :D

watching Emily Rose.

Ladies :)

lol....we thought there gona be steamboat and bbq, manatau only bbq.

Hungry me just feed myself with SALAD. LOTSA LOTSA GREENS lol :) thats why i am not angry....while Alvina is angry because she din eat salad at all....thats why she's so hungry lol...poor monkey butt....(to those who don't know, Alvina is my college buddy and she named me Chicken butt and I named her monkey butt)

haha.....hungry us simply made soup with oyster sauce,salt, pepper,carrot, tomato, onion.....

Just throw everything in....

waiting for the soup to boil is like the longest moment in my life....

I AM SO HUNGRY! haha...

finally it boils and we just throw all the sausages and balls in

:) YUM YUM :)

then, I don't feel happy, cause basically what I am eating is those frozen food and lotsa meat...so I stuffed myself with vege again :) Moooooooo :D Eh no...I'm a horse k (chinese horoscope)

Well, we played "Speed" with cards....me proudly introduce that game to them...*proud*

first time see how Abelene and Yvonne scream and react due to over excitement =D

Later, we watched Emily Rose, exorcist movie.....I still remember I watched that few years back, I like that movie :) Don't really feel afraid :)....see, I'm stronger.

then we play game -- 007, introduced by Yvonne. Fun game! :)) drink and chat.....back at 2am :)

I just wanna say, friends are really important, I know about this fact a year ago or something :) Just treasure everyone beside you *wheeee*

28th July 2011: Ji Muis day & Meet new friends :)

overslept...and rush to meet up Mei Bel mei mei, LK and Ye Earn...

its been like AGES since I went out with them... :)

How nice they are not angry at me .....

We watched Captain America and it was just OK....3 stars over 5 stars?

Then, they accompanied me to Gardenia casting at Tmn Tun....

*hopefully I get that ad* pwease pwease God.

Then chit chat at Penang Village :)

updating session

Thank you all for attending this outing <3 Thank you

Night, meet up Charissa, John & Rob from Bristol, Kah Ann and new friend Audrey at Kayu Nasi Kandar Chow Yang

chat awhile and off to Charissa's house :)

Then followed them down to KL :) Have a mini 30minutes tour around KL around 11pm :) Love KL. I guess is because of the pretty lights...and crowd :)

a picture with the group, Charissa's dad- Mr.Tan is the photographer :) Thank you uncle.

29th July 2011-Shopping Spree!

Second time, Jolene; my primary school bestie meet my parents :)

Ajak her go to have brunch with my family, a new Bak Ku Teh place at Damansara Perdana

Suppose to meet up Charissa and friends in KL but due to the SUPER CRAZY JAM, Jolene & I ended up in Farenheitt 88 and started shopping there...feel bad though....promised to meet the guys and Charissa but I broke my promise.

From Vincci, we both bought the same shoes,

to Chapter 8, we both get something....

then to Mirrorcles....we both of course, grab stuffs from there :)

I am her fashion stylist even though I am not very trendy.....teeehee =D

Glad she listens to my advice *woots woots*

grab OVERLOAD soya ice series at Snowflake, Pavilion...at only RM4.50 *wink*

I was already exhausted and battery low by the time we are in Pavillion.....substituting my dinner with dessert makes me a little better :)

Then again, jam jam jam all the way to home. lol....

Even can flirt with guys beside us....not me not me....Jolene get their attention though, I was busy smsing. lol....the guy imitating me smsing and so Jolene say he's interested in me. BLA BLA BLA...I don't care.

Jolene's conclusion of that day is "60% of the guys looking at u today, I only got like 40%, and 60% from girls" -.- ohmy. What a GREAT conclusion haha.

of course my perception is different, I walked past everyone, they basically look at Jolene :) Long curled hair, white sweet smile and that Body woolala :P

Then 9pm reach back her house.....played a bit of guitar, took pictures with Autumn the chao chao.....and she sent me back

That lady is super energetic...all the way home singing...shaking legs and body...and I'm like having that "DO NOT DISTURB" sign on my face....guessed I have overused my energy while on the way to KL, I talked non stop. Really like too much. Lesson learnt.

Thank you Jolene for fetching me :) heart you. Love your personality.

I wonder

2011-07-28T03:03:00.003+08:00

I wonder how did you feel after all these?

I wonder how will I feel after all these?

I wonder how long will it takes?

I wonder how's everything going to be like tomorrow?

I wonder how's everything going to be like the day after tomorrow......

and the following days...

Until the DAY...THE DAY.

I am seriously living my life to the fullest?

AM I?

I am afraid actually. Pathetically living my life with the presence of people.....*terms n condition apply*

"you are strong outside but weak inside" anonymous & anonymous said to me.

"you are very straightforward" anonymous & anonymous said to me.

I think I am, for both statements.

Is everything going to end soon?
I WONDER

It would be so nice if I am living in the fairy tale world.

Why cannot?

2011-07-27T02:35:00.002+08:00

why can't I live my own life?

Being seen as moving on easily also will be penalized

what the hell is that?

Just going out rather than staying alone....

having friends around also will be penalized?

why guys? not girls?

what is this man?

only can have girls' friends a?

you think I want to move on a?

you think moving on so easy a?

everyday go out with a smile come back with a heart dying inside.....

seems to be happy but can be sad...

know or not?!

Happy!

2011-07-26T23:33:00.001+08:00

HEHE.....going for gardenia advertisement try out :)

Happy for me?

hehe :)

Im super happy for myself! :D

excited! :))

think myself born with talent of acting :) *cough cough*

Wish me luck

Pray for me

I'm so gonna get that job!

Wheeeeeee ^.^Y

Just another day

2011-07-26T00:54:00.002+08:00

Well today....

stayed back in college until 8pm

and I don even feel like rushing home.....or to anywhere else...

I do my work how fast & how slow I want........I thought I can join them for swimming....

but failed.

Guess I don even care.

Think back last time...

I cant even stay in college after 5p.m.,

for I sure I have to plans for myself

to go to your house....

to see you.....

because that's the happiest thing can happen to me everyday...

Watched "Do you heard about the Morgans" & "Alice in the Wonderland"

feel so gloomy...

one with happy ending....one colour so dull

can't remember whom I watch both movie with...

but I am sure....

not with you.

Oh and I almost bang a dog.

Grr. stupid dog...next time please don't run,

look left and right before you cross the road.

Something crazy

2011-07-25T01:08:00.001+08:00

haha :) I did something weird, crazy and scary today

Jolene was like "O.O" staring at me when I say the request

sigh.

I did a lot of times lor. lol

with another friend too :)

its like people who are crazily in love only will do one lor.

but it can be creepy la. lol!

who cares.

no one knows.

SHH.

Just a Meaningful Day

2011-07-24T22:24:00.003+08:00

Today :) I went to Cheer 2011 :)

but I did not get to take picture with Wen.....she looks so cute when she's "flying" :) aww!

I saw that SMILE on her face :D

They did pretty good job! :) really! :) much better than Dynamitez, even

my friend agreed ;)

Then I met another new friend,

lovely girl :) -Di Chang :) special name, pretty, and easy go

ing. I kinda name her, Jolene n I as "La Xia", Im not sure is it how they call it, it means "old ladies" lol.

a picture of us :)

Then Gary video casting/photo shooting & Midvalley.

Let her try out Gong Cha as I need some sugar.

THEN THEN THEN....I learn a bit of guitar, G, C,E & D :)

Jolene said I learnt fast ;P hooray!

tata :)

I am trying

2011-07-24T02:16:00.003+08:00

22.7.11

Mich Xia xia's 21st! :)

wow....it was a .....hard night for me. lol...

in the cafe, listening to him singing songs, listening to her singing songs....

though I am surrounded by people, I feel lonely.

*Teardrops on my guitar*

lots of things happen besides the after party thing where I get so "low" & "high" and I puked.

I am glad I met new friends,

especially the two siao po :) haha....

Thank you all for the night.

and I slept around 4.30am. =S

23.7.11

went out with primary school friend,

well, we used to be best friend in primary school,

and I don't know,

we just so click now,

talk about everything anything

:) no fake smiles or fake look or fake whatever.

just US.

well, we talked about something

which makes me ponder till now.

So hard to find someone.

that special someone whom you will have to go through think and thin with him

that special someone who are so much closer to you compare with your family

that special someone who might marry you one day.

SO HARD.......

and I just lose hope and faith.

I guess I am deeply hurt.

That's why I am losing my sense of direction in life now.

S-O-S

ohman! I forgot. I need to wake up at 6am later! GOSH :(

Random

2011-07-24T01:54:00.003+08:00

being random

so I went to this site and play

and the each time I click.

I just feel like vomiting

argh. why guys are so narcissistic?

the D* is prettier than the face? -.-

17, m, aus.....

i said to him "you look kinda like Justin bieber and i hope you don mind"

when i came back to the chatbox

he has off it and leave these msgs

"oh! that was offensive, k bye"

I LMAO. lol

mind

2011-07-23T03:34:00.003+08:00

I don't know how.

how to live it.

its been so long

and i did have fun just now with my friends

but its just happy for a moment

just that particular moment

and everything gone

i am still me now.

i need to be strong.

but im so weak now.

No Perfect People

2011-07-21T02:07:00.000+08:00

...........

then girl ask him to shut up and say "why cant i ever have a normal boyfriend"

then the mother come out and say "maybe cause they dont exist"

Lesson:

it says life will be better if humans just accepted instead of expecting all the time

-As Good as it Gets-

overly sad

2011-07-20T01:53:00.002+08:00

I think,
when a person is overly sad,
that's when she is unable to cry
even though she wants to.

*squueze squueze* out the tears,
eh?
no tears wor.

only when someone touches the heart
only when she reads something,
that she thinks is true
that she thinks is what she is now,

then the tears will just fall.
bloop bloop.
eh?
got tears already wor.

Angels

2011-07-19T18:03:00.002+08:00

"For I KNOW the PLANS I have for YOU"
says the LORD.
"They are plans for GOOD and not for Disaster, to give you a FUTURE and a HOPE".

-Jeremiah 29:11-

sometimes you wonder, do I deserved to be treated nicely,
where out of sudden many people are there to concern about you,
be nice to you,
and you are just surprised.
doubting "why they are so nice to me, why?"

well, just go ahead and enjoy la. think so much for what?
they wanna be nice to you, it would be great already!

Keep reading this

2011-07-19T14:49:00.000+08:00

oh so tiny words. lol.

A sweet voice from Perth

2011-07-19T01:03:00.004+08:00

Carmen call and check on me
very sweet of her
she keep telling me
because of PMS, thats why i am strong
and after that i will break down

i tell her,
that's what my best friend says too,
but im really feeling all right,

she says: "i rather u break down and cry and don't keep all inside"

and i just have tears rolling in my eyes.

why oh why.

How ironic

2011-07-17T23:12:00.003+08:00

To whoever who wants to see my updates

who wants to know what happen

who wants to know how am I

here it is

I feel so damn good,

not until I told my parents what happen

Guess what are their reactions?

HAHAHHAHA

HOW SUPPORTIVE MY PARENTS ARE

I FEEL SO FUCKING HAPPY MAN

they blamed me

the first thing they say is to tease me, blame me....

not even some words of encouragement, concern........smile?

I rather you both just shut your mouths man

don have to say anything because I wont think you both are dumb.

how ironic

I was telling my friends...

no worries...I have God, I have my friends...and family to support.

but now you know what....cancel the FAMILY word behind there.

I have never been so sure in my life...

I just want to say that....they will never be the supportive people behind me, NEVER
I AM SO SURE.

since young.....whatever I tell them

they do not even give a shit to it.

even now?

my fault

yea....my fault. just say its my fault

tell the world is my fault.

HAPPY?

Who say the youngest child get the most love?

IS FAKE!

I was so strong that I never even tear.

But now.....I keep crying

knowing the fact that you both won't be there to support

I accepted the fact

and I cry.

I knew it.

shouldn't have told you all anything.

GO AWAY

If I have the chance

I will migrate.

this time, I will think twice.....~~to bring you both over or not.~~

Don't have to please all

2011-06-22T01:54:00.005+08:00

I blog, whenever I am inspired, or I have something to share to all.

I am a person, who pleases everyone.

I would like everyone to like me, who's not?

I be nice to all because I want them to be nice to me.

I am excited to meet people who are the same kind as me

what kind?

Crazy, humorous, nice, honest, ~~back stab~~ *of course*.

I found two so far.

my two closest friends.

I have a high school best friend too.

we don't really contact each other for almost 3 years!

recently we meet up and chat.

We still talk a lot.

Don't feel any embarrassed or uneasy feelings.

I have another close friend from high school.

We do not contact much....

But I know, deep down in both of our hearts,

we treasure each other.

we care of each other...even we are far apart.

so back to the be-nice-to-people topic.

How would you feel if you are used to just fill up the other person's free time or embarrassing time where she has no one to talk to?

How would you feel....if she do not WANT or YEARN you....or just plainly treat you like a friend?

she pretends, literally.

"Hi" *smiles*

"Bye" *smiles*

"See you soon Nicole" *smiles*

How would you feel, if she only chooses people who are as pretty as universe to be her friend...

How would you feel if she only chooses people who are RICH to be her friend?

you be nice to her ...again and again...

but you don't see any appreciative reaction or bx in return at all.

I know, if we want to treat people nice, we should do it from our heart and expect no return.

But that love

and this is ain't love honey,

this is friendship.

TELL ME WHO ON EARTH DON'T EXPECTS PEOPLE TO TREAT THEM BACK NICELY IF THEY TREAT THE PERSON NICELY?! TELL ME!

everyone expects.

everyone wants something from someone.

Be it a hug...a sincere smiles....a line of words on FB wall....a warm greetings, a simple wish....a tagged picture...etc....

They are still something!

They mean something!

They are something to prove your existence! Like "Hey girl, I got it...thank you for being so nice to me".....(even she did not say anything).

*cry*

Now I learned.

Be nice to a person.

Once. Twice. Thrice.

That's it.

Give yourself a limit.

If she or he does not give any response.

FINE.

Stop Kissing her/his butt. It's smelly after all.

I may be one of the B* who uses people.

I may be one of the B* who is high profile and chooses my fri

ends.

At least now, at this moment, I know....I won't wanna be that B* and I ain't gona be like her!

and I Ain't LIKE HER !!!!!

on the other hand, I should always watch my action, my words and thoughts.

I will be extra careful, not to hurt someone else like how she hurts me.

Why should I care? After all I don't know her much, she don't know me much....

The point why am I hurting here because I care, the very first moment we meet I gave all my heart to her *sounds like love,puke*......just because I don't mind to start a friendship with her.

I hope I really can do it.

Giving myself a limit,

do not keep pleasing people.

ps: found this through google, credits to artdecod.

Call

2011-05-13T01:05:00.000+08:00

I just have to say that..

I love it whenever you called and check whether I am home <3

mature

2011-05-12T04:00:00.002+08:00

I have never felt so independent before

I have never felt so mature before

I have been so far, I have learnt so much

All because of you, for you

Tell me I'm doing great, will you?

Your words

2011-05-10T04:30:00.002+08:00

You words, are harshed.

I hope I am not that forgetful

so that I can always remember what you said to me.

and part of my heart will always tell me to be careful.

of you.

2011-05-02T17:00:00.000+08:00

一對新婚夫妻新婚燕爾，
準備於第二天利用婚假的剩餘幾天
北載河、秦皇島好好玩一玩，
兩張火車票已經買好了，就放在床頭櫃上。
然而，就在這一天的晚上，
他們所在的唐山市發生了舉世震驚的唐山大地震。
當妻子掙扎著睜開眼睛時，周圍漆黑一片，
彷彿整個天空都坍塌下來一般。
樓板落了下來，壓在年輕的丈夫身上。
他們被困在了裡面，年輕妻子絕望了。
他們仰臉躺在床上，
用兩個人的四肢手臂一起向上推那塊水泥板，試圖把它推開。

然而失敗了，水泥板像焊在那裡一樣，紋絲不動。
年輕丈夫鼓勵妻子別怕，過一陣子會有人來救他們的。
妻子告訴年輕丈夫：只要在你身邊，我什麼都不怕。
妻子用手向另一側摸去，
幻想能摸到一線生機的希望，但只有水泥板、磚塊……
妻子幾近絕望，生命的支柱一瞬間像房屋一樣坍塌了。
事情還沒做完，今後的路應該很長，
對，還有北載河、秦皇島、還有那兩張車票，
就放在床頭櫃上。

車票，使妻子產生了新動力和勇氣，於是繼續摸索。
床頭櫃──車票── 妻子真的觸摸到了一張硬紙板，
真的是車票！
妻子非常高興，把車票握在手裡，
動地搖著年輕丈夫的肩膀：
我找到了車票！年輕丈夫也很高興：是兩張車票。

妻子心頭一沉，只有一張，
原來另一張車票被水泥板牢牢地第壓住了，
只露出極小的一角，妻子試圖把它拉出來，卻幾次都未如願。
妻子無言答對，默默地流淚。
年輕丈夫安慰到：不要緊，可以… . . 再買一張… ..
沈重的水泥版一端壓在年輕丈夫身上，
一端壓在床頭櫃的車票上，
兩個支點為妻子留下了一塊賴以生存的空間，
也不知道外面的世界發生了什麼變化，
除了一張車票和一個年輕丈夫，妻子什麼都沒有，
就連一點點生的希望都在漸漸稀釋、融化。
飢餓、渴使得妻子幾乎都想放棄。
似乎年輕妻子丈夫已經意識到了妻子的信念
正在一點一點地崩潰，
並開始向妻使述說他們未來的旅程，講述外面的美景：
美麗的北載河、迷人的西雙版納……

一種無形的力量在妻子體內湧動，
一個生命的光環在眼前擴散，越來越大，越來越亮。
年輕丈夫用生命的餘暉，為妻子點燃一支希望的蠟燭，
這支蠟燭一直照亮著妻子走出地獄之門，重返光明的人間。
一天清晨，壓在他們頭頂的水泥版被掀開了，
妻子被救了出來。
當妻子急急地爬到年輕丈夫身邊，
映入眼簾的一幕突然間讓妻子變傻了：
丈夫的右半邊身體完全被砸成了肉泥，
殷紅的血凝固在廢墟的石堆裡。
年輕丈夫只看了妻子一眼，
嘴角滲出了一絲淺淺的笑紋，就閉上了雙眼。
年輕丈夫以最頑強的精神、最堅韌的毅力和最深切的愛，
陪伴和激勵妻子度過了最艱苦、黑暗的三個晝夜，
然後安心走了。

年輕的丈夫走了，他的一份深深的愛卻讓妻子享受一輩子。
愛情需要精心呵護，更需要堅強的意志來保證。
當我們擁有愛情時，我們不懂得愛情，
當我們懂得愛情時，我們已經沒有了愛的能力了。

魚說：「你看不見我眼中的淚，因為我在水中... 」
水說：「我能感覺你的淚，因為你在我的心裡...」

來源: 網絡流傳

You know Who you are

2011-04-20T16:19:00.004+08:00

Throughout these five days.

I learn quite a few lessons.

There's fate surrounding you.

However, you do not depend everything on God to help you.

You must first fight for yourself....

practically GIVE YOU BEST....

You need courage, you need communication skills...

Follow your heart, and stop thinking with your brain.

Secondly,

Communication is everything!

LITERALLY EVERYTHING!

I urge everybody to take up communication subjects,

eg. interpersonal communication....intercultural communication.....effective listening..

Through all these subjects, you will find out that how complicated communication is.

you will know how important communication and being a good listener is

you will know how to deal with people

you are able to put yourself in other's people shoes

you will get that much more mature....just a little but better than nothing...

you may find that "why should i study communication? my language is fluent and im known to be a good communicator".....

well, if you haven't take up these subjects, you just have to.

Your mind is broadened..

It will definitely help you in your current and future relationships with parents, friends, partners

Thirdly, I realize how a true friend...how a best friend can always be there for you...

despite there are people who tell you "why worth your time to help your friend? is her problem not yours....let her solve her own problems..."........but she will still be there for you! Alvina Ng SHWU SHWU SHWU wei :D hehe.....my only MONKEY BUTT :D The BEST SO FAR!

Thank you :)

Fourthly, never say never.....

never sit down there alone and think yourself how things can't work out between you and your partner

JUST MAKE THE MOVE

make the move to talk to your partner.

NO COMMUNICATION = NOT GIVING YOURSELF/PARTNER CHANCES = LOSING A GREAT OPPORTUNITY = POSSIBLE TO LOSE THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE

Worth it not?

OF course not.

Must forever know that, appreciate now.

Love is blind, love is deaf, love is wonderful.

Dump your bad memories.

Start to construct new awesome memories with your partners.

If you give yourself a chance, you are giving lots of chances to lots of possible good outcomes :)

If you are giving yourself a chance, then you have to stop thinking about the pasts.

:) Just my personal experience :)

Faith Hill- Like We Never Loved At All

2011-04-19T01:04:00.000+08:00

You never looked so good
As you did last night
Underneath the city lights
There walking with your friend
Laughing at the moon
I swear you looked right through me
But I'm still living with your goodbye
And you're just going on with your life

[Chorus:]
How can you just walk on by
Without one tear in your eye?
Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me?
Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Like we never loved at all

You, I hear you're doing fine
Seems like you're doing well
As far as I can tell
Time is leaving us behind
Another week has passed
And still I haven't laughed yet
So tell me what your secret is?
To letting go, letting go like you did, like you did

[Chorus]

Did you forget the magic?
Did you forget the passion?
Did you ever miss me
Ever long to kiss me?

Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Like we never loved at all

You, you never looked so good

from www.azlyrics.com

3 days

2011-04-18T20:03:00.002+08:00

So tonight...when the clock strikes 2.30 am...we have already not seen each other for 3 days. no, 4 days.

3 days time is like the common time limit...to know whether something comes to an end or not.

2011-04-18T18:21:00.003+08:00

Never ignore a person who loves you, cares for you, and misses you. Because one day, you might wake up from your sleep and realize that you lost the moon while counting the stars.

-Wan Syazlin- :)

Everyday one meal

2011-04-17T02:56:00.003+08:00

I really have no appetite lately.

everyday 1 meal

and I usually eat right after I wake up

but now? I eat after like hours? and seriously one day one meal

Indo mee, duck soup mee....drinks..all in front of me...

but i can just sleep and ignore them

basically im kinda super woman now.

My 21st Birthday

2011-04-16T02:02:00.002+08:00

9th April

I woke up,

I prayed to God, to let me win some money

so i pick some numbers from my jewellery box which i have prepared the night before

I got the number 9050

On that day it self,

0904 is the first prize and 9004 is the 2nd prize...

I think God heard wrongly.

Communication communication

tsk tsk.

I just wanna specially thanks to Alvina.

who make the decorations on the cake for me

prepare the surprise party for me, also the person who surprised me

Thanks to Jan.

I din know you will make such a nice board for me...

it must have take up lots of ur time and being stress around cutting love shapes and asking people to sign har?

:) Im sorry i was drunk that night

Im sorry that I din get to dance with u girls on the dance floor which I myself regretted.

Im sorry to make u all not having supper....

Im sorry for sleeping so late and no breakfast for us

Im sorry that Jan you have to keep taking care of me

Im sorry....and im thankful

to those 3 persons in the car :)

kinda like a perfect night for me

but good things don't last

that is why we have to appreciate

I did.

but.....

Love Songs are BOMB

2011-04-16T01:51:00.003+08:00

driving home from OUG.

petrol tank from full till 3 quarter full

radio playing all kinds of love songs

"who do think you are...."

"its about me me me me me ......."

....and i cant remember

i just know...i do not get bored of them.

i love those songs.

its just suit the feeling of mine.....at the current moment.

i wonder how people who don't go out

pass their life?

i know...time will heal

i know...one day i will be like "omg...last time im so pathetic and funny"

but i don't know....

what will happen in the next minute..

pathetic.

IMMA president :)

2011-04-07T23:22:00.002+08:00

So before the clock strikes 12 and the night becomes Friday

I just wanna say I was elected to be President today :) for Psychology Club

sure because I'm the senior among them....but not the oldest :)

and so Amily is my Vice President

and Alvina is the PR committee.....easy work sial! :)

and today i am so forgetful

I totally forgot i got cheer in college at 7pm

I totally forgot....don't know what

and Alvina bought me Pandan ice cream potong

but i say NO.

sad alvina :(

ok tata :)

Happy Birthday Mommy the GREATEST

2011-03-24T22:59:00.003+08:00

It's your birthday, 23rd March, the first day of Aries =)

=) I once heard someone say,

"birthday are like old wine, it gets better with time" :)

and mommy you get better each and everyday....

***

"a person gets more beautiful as the numbers of candles increase"

2nd Sister :)

Boyfriend :)

Family :) (eldest sis and brother in law in German)

Love you mommy.

The First Man in My Life

2011-03-24T22:53:00.003+08:00

Still remember when I was young, I fall asleep on the sofa,

and when I woke up the next day, I will be in my room.

You carry me up to my room.

Sometimes, when you are half way carrying me,

I awake, but I pretend and continue to sleep,

because I like it when you carry me :)

There was once I awake and u know,

and u ask me to walk up myself,

as Im getting heavier

I'm sad... :( just sad.

I have passion for Cheer

since 15 years old,

you always fetch me to school or field for cheer practices, every week at least three times above

and I take it for granted

Now I have learned how to drive

I understand, driving is tiring,

beside you have to come back from Glenmarie to Tmn Ses just to fetch me to school

That is real tiring

U did not complain

Thank you :)

When I was 3 4 5 yrs old,

we always shower together :) with 3rd sister

U help us to wash hair,

and wipe off

My english vocabulary is bad, now still

U ask me to read newspaper,

but till now,

I did not follow.

I know,

I will regret one day

last yr you made a huge birthday party for me.

This year,

for my 21st,

Can I have a room for myself ? :)

Happy Birthday The First Man in My Life

2011-03-18T01:35:00.005+08:00

This was December 2009, my individual assignment for Human Growth subject :) - Scrapbook
I think that is my first time to Cameron Highland, I can't remember whether is Cameron Highland or not. LOL.

Aww :) how old am I? Luckily there's a date stated at the photograph :)
I was around 9 months old :) Me chubby lor :) Looks like baby boy? :)))

I was only, erm....4 or 5 years old? Daddy brought us to Langkawi :)
I was told to take picture, I refused, daddy angry....
Proof? Look at my sad face...LOL....daddy still can smile...cheh! Poker face!
ps: My dad handsome le? haha :)

My 1st time to US, I was only Standard 4 or 5
Daddy's $ very tight, after begging him much for days, he let me go! :) Thank you so much Dad!

2010 Chinese New Year at Dad'd hometown :) a bit obscene har? :)

Happy Birthday Daddy :))
The Sole breadwinner of the family
Knowing that you have grown so old and still have to work,
for the sake of this family
for the sake of my education
for the sake of our wonderful lifestyle
for the sake of our 3 meals
for the sake of our happiness
for the sake of some many things/stuffs and blablabla.....
I feel sad.
I feel incapable of letting you rest at the age of 55 and go enjoy your life with ma
Sometimes I blame myself why I was borned, if not you will not have to work now to pay my fees, to pay for my crave for shopping and food....etc...

You're a responsibility man
You have a tummy which is getting bigger and bigger in the past 20 years due to your PASSION for beer and alcohol....lol
You have patience for us, especially for mom
You have good financial plan and always keep neat accounts
You're scary and fierce when you're angry
You are hot tempered and so I have your genes too
You're tan....so am I
You have big eyes, but I have the combination of yours and mom's eyes so my eyes are smaller :P lol

You gives me freedom
Freedom to go out with my friends
the most memorable one is when I was standard 5/6, I asked you whether I am allowed to follow my 2 guys and 2 girls friends to take LRT to KLCC
I expected a NO and some advices as I am too young for LRT in a not very safe country
BUT.....
you said YES :)
You trusted me
:) I am really happy and appreciate it a lot :)

Time passed
As I getting taller and prettier (cheh :) perasaan)
You have more and more white hair growing
I get more freedom as I own a car
I go anywhere I like to go
I do not inform you where I go anymore
I still remember you told me I should ask for your permission if I want to work as a part timer
You do not let me work those job which is "sex appealing", wearing mini skirt, selling liquor, selling cigarettes....blablabla...
those jobs that mostly older generations do not like..
You urge me to ask for permission if I want to work
You even ask me "Why you want to work? Daddy have not enough $ to support u meh?"
Its not that way
Maybe I should say I am matured at a young age
I know I use lots of money to buy all my stuffs and unable to save a little into my account
I just feel bad
So just want to earn money and save them all to bank or maybe buy whatever I want to buy

You ask me where I go whenever I leave the house at night and when you're sitting at the living room
I am afraid
I always wait for you to go to your room only I sneak out
So I do not have to face you asking me "Where are you going"
and when I answer...
you will be saying "Don't come home too late..." or "why wanna go out? Don't......" and others...

I promise to take care of you :)
I promise to treat you and family dinner when I got my first pay :)))
I hope I am capable of sponsor you and mom to oversea to "makan angin" :)
I hope......
lots of hopes and must I wanna do for you..and family :)

I love you Papa <3

Honesty is the Best Policy

2011-03-14T21:07:00.005+08:00

Don't twist it
Not telling me, you are trying to deceive me
Not telling me, you are already making a big deal out of it
So do not blame me now for being making a BIG deal out of it

You say you don't find it any big deal
Then tell me!
Don't twist it
saying I will blablablablablabla so you don't want to tell me.

Not telling me, assuming I will angry
yes,
that kind of feeling i know
but where is ur policy?
We r so proud of ur "telling everything nothing but the truth"
But....You are now slapping own mouth with your own words
You are in dilemma.
You have ruined your best principle ever.

So now Honesty is the Worst policy yea?
You can continue telling your Lies
But I won't
That is not me
However, I will let you to choose
You wan the truth?
Or the Lies/fake/false?

xoxo

plain emotions. :)

Dog Its Just Like a Child

2011-03-12T16:28:00.003+08:00

Pepper boy is like a child!

Always wanna go out...lol! hop into any car with open door.

lol

and so yesterday I bring him 'long kai" for a while :) satisfy him...

he's so cute!

he sit at the passenger seat

then when open the door...he runs behind..

and when opens the back door...

he runs in front

LOL....

SO CUTE.

still remember my cousins also like that...

Must sit in the car and go out awhile then only stop crying..

Shouldn't Have

2011-03-11T18:14:00.004+08:00

Shouldn't have fall into this friendship so quickly

thinking that she will treat me the same as how i treat her
thinking that she will appreciate me as how i appreciate her
thinking that she will be grateful to meet me as how i being so grateful to meet her
thinking that our friendship will last
but just right after one event
I think I am too naive
to think everyone will treat/look at me the way I look at them
Shouldn't have trust people easily
SILLY ME.

Who treat u as best friend?
ME MYSELF SILLY ME

Anything just F* speak right to my face
What you expect?
I can hear you when you gossip so soft?!
Got the gut to face to face talk not?!
Come la.
I got hearing problem...
So what?
You sure you don't have?
I DOUBT.

A true friend stabs you in the front

(ps: got such t-shirt? i should definitely get one.)

Happiness regained

2011-03-08T17:59:00.002+08:00

Tada.. :) Happiness back :)))
I didn't know I actually Love you so much till I shiver and its like meeting you for the first time...

you hug me and am still afraid....
but now its all clear :)
Hope we'll not separate because of weak reasons *warn u* :P

People say once you both together for half a year above...
Do no break up easily :)
Because half a year is not easy :)

Happy GOING-to-happen ANNIVERSARY for us :)

Make Meanings out of Words

2011-03-07T12:43:00.002+08:00

So this is what happen actually..

well, shouldn't give up easily though

I tell you about myself

and you refused to,

maybe you are just too upset.

but remember, must communication...must talk

when we talk, we make meanings out of things

You were meant for me?

2011-03-06T02:32:00.002+08:00

I half sleep and half awake.....from the moment i received the very persist message from u....

Till 6am, I finally awake...heart beat getting faster and faster

Then slowly, i fall asleep.....till 7 am

I message my friend that i will be late for cheer later...because I finally can sleep that 1 hour.

I feel that...."I broke up with him! its a big deal...forgive me I need to sleep and Im late for cheer....pls empathy me"....(finally im thinking for myself)

thats how i feel...

went to cheer...it lasted for an hour...

I keep taking my time so the clock will strike 10am...and so I can get a chance to see him

but my eyes were looking other places but not into his eyes....

only when he's not looking, I will peek at him for that milliseconds then I pretend I don care...

Actually I am quite strong...

I go through 24 hours...

crying...study...then suddenly cry...then...ya...keep repeat this cycle...

I got insomnia...im dead tired...i sleep for 2 hours in the afternoon after cheer.....

wanna continue to sleep for another hour

but i cant

cause my mind is all about him

so I woke up and write notes

im so happy..and unexpected...SURPRISE to receive the msg from him!

im so happy now

like a child got a candy

Im so grateful

my friends....were there for me...the two of you...

I owe u both.

Dream last so long

even after you're gone

i know, you love me,

and soon you will see

you were meant for me

and i was meant for you

-Jewel-

I should have

2011-03-05T16:08:00.002+08:00

I should have hug the dog before I leave

I should have really say goodbye to them.

I should have ....

分手，有什么了不起

2011-03-05T10:57:00.002+08:00

It's just break up, what so big deal about it? Sounds strong...yes, I have to be.

oh well, i just wish i am not facing midterm now...at least I can hang out...do something relaxing...lepak...watch a movie...then another movie....again a movie.....movie marathon ...or just run a marathon...go swimming....play bowling....something that I feel happy but not just facing my notes.

but in fact, it is a fact. I have to face my notes, I have to deal with my midterm. Thats the reason why am i so stress...

Goodbye Pepper, Goodbye Rex, Goodbye Jeanne, Goodbye Grandma/Grandpa/Ah Po....Goodbye.

I am strong, but you're not, I just met the wrong person who are not strong in this relationship...

but at the same time I am pathetic

I do not have the courage to even tell my mom i broke up

guess I think I will burst out

I don't want them to worry for me.

But One day everyone still have to know the truth.

I just have to be strong even after it ends...strong forever.

Having Depression

2011-03-04T23:43:00.001+08:00

:( Symptoms of depressions :

get emotional easily,

get moody easily,

get sad easily,

get blue easily,

cry easily,

feels that not being care,

sensitivity increases

Its all the same.

_ _ _ _ is though.

My Responsibility

2011-03-03T21:33:00.003+08:00

Left a pair of borrowed heels at bf's place so that he can helped to repair as the sole has came off...

Naughty Pepper boy pull the paper bag down and bite the heels in it....@.@

ME VERY STRESS!!!

Because i dislike the feeling that others are unable to trust me in borrowing me things or do things or whatever.....even though it seems like not really my fault, but I will still take it as mine fault/responsibility....because no matter what I know the main responsibility is from me, I borrow it from my cousin...and I should returned it in good condition....

=( sad....

Even if I am in my bf's situation....someone else left her high heels at my place and my dog bite it...I will still take it as my responsibility...I feel that I always want to take the responsibility...because I know I somehow have it....but I like to take it all to myself...

Me = 很难搞，搞不懂 =.=

Hectic Semester

2011-03-01T19:29:00.003+08:00

and so I thought this semester is no problem for me but I found out that each group has to do something for the campaign and do a proposal about it by 4th March?! I am going crazy.

1. Well, I have not written any proposal before, I do not even know what format it has to be.

2. I am afraid my members are not giving cooperation and end up I have to do all the things by myself?

3. Checking out the prices of each types of glue which can potentially abused by the society.

4. Communicate with one of the group member which I doubt he will give any response or serious help as I have experienced with him before...and..it turns out...not very good =/

5. Midterm is next week! OMG.....Skills and Strategies class has so much to read on.

6. Substance abuse subject is on the same day as Skill & Strategies and I am so dead! [my most fear-est subject =( ]

7. Cheer Performance next Thursday, and I really hope the new dance would be easier, and my cheermates will be ok with me not going practices all the time =/

8. Stress.

SO, TIME TO BE SUPER HARDWORKING!

Inspired by If I Die Young (The Band Perry)

2011-03-01T01:20:00.004+08:00

New song har~ :) Nice song...

love the girl's voice...

well..I'm inspired

I used to post a blog about what my family and friends should

do when I die.

As you know, anything can happen...anytime..anywhere...sometimes, it happen without informing u beforehand, and it can be so sudden.....

so this blog is to prepare you all....how I want my funeral to be.

well, put some make up on me, make sure my eyes are beautiful....and my skin are flawless...and a little pink cheeks....some light lipstick...white dress...white flats....put me nicely in the coffin....and surrounded by flowers...specifically sunflowers, r

oses and peonies...ok maybe just peonies...they're SO BEAUTIFUL...oh well...I'm greedy...just give me 3 kinds of flowers. =)

well, I hope each of you, whom I know...to come and visit me the

very last time.

Burn me off....after days of grieving

To those whom I love, whom are important for me, keep a small bottle of my ashes...so wherever you go, bring me along...alright? =) I can be in the different part of the world when you all travel, shift houses....etc...

:) well, just don't have to be sad. Everything is going to be alright. Be strong....I will be in on top there and look after you <3

CHEERS

My Valentine's Day - CYS & LTT

2011-03-01T00:23:00.012+08:00

So it's 14th FEBRUARY! :) where guys are rushing to buy presents their gfs hint them...and the florist are making lots of money.....and girls just have to sit back and make themselves pretty for that day :))

CYS came over my house in the afternoon.

I left the package on the top floor, at my "used-to-be" bed...

and he came up...as I know, he wouldn't notice (he's just that blur) :)

I need to point at the package only he is like "OHhhh...."

HAHA.....very very simple present...and a card i scribble and colour on it.

So if you notice, he changed his outfit, they're from me XD

hehe...my fatty boom boom :)

And we both hop into his car to go for lunch, at 3.40 p.m.?! LOL....that is my first meal of the day

and he ask me to find one of the present.

and i open up the compartment at the side, i was surprised!

Because my "newborn" son....ITS SO CUTEEE! :D

He is Porcupi :))))

ps: he forgot to take off the price tag....LOL...forgive him as he rushed yesterday just to FIND presents for me...but only got a card, and woke up early in the morning went out with a friend to buy present for his gf too....travel to subang to sunway pyramid to bangsar to midvalley....erm...hope I'm right...consumed half of his petrol...just to make my day :)

Daddy with the youngest baby.

Porcupi sunbathing :) SHOOO CUTEEEE

and i got another present too :) a present that he is so afraid to give me, he is very very afraid that I do not like it (well, there's a reason behind).

Comes with a red envelope ! :)

lol...don't laugh please. Oh and I am not engaged. lol...he just find the meaning in the card suits his feelings best...so he has to choose this card <3

So we had pan mee at seapark! :) One of my favourite shop! :) Oh we had lunch with my mom and aunties. LOL

Us :) ignore how i cross my leg, very rough :P

and then i went to wash and blow my hair :) CURL!...cost me RM30! expensive lar.

The lady helped me to tie up, so I won't wet it... :) and so the curl will stay, as my hair very fine, those curls don't stay long!I hint him to buy me a bunch of flowers. guess what, he is just so innocent to buy me 3 white carnations! WHITE! LOL....well, he's a banana...he don't know the taboo of white...LOL....he told me I am as fair as the flowers.....*aww*...I hate the fact that I know I am not as fair as the flower, but the thought of him is SHOOO SWEEET <3

Ready for Dinner <3

At Waterlily, Mutiara Tropicana

Open present ceremony for me :) hehe...these are part of my weird pictures :)))

The present is NICE :) REAL NICE :) I love :)) (but yesterday someone drop a oily chicken on it yea? LOL)

Our dishes :) Cost us around....Erm....erm.....RM80! :) something like that..but I'm sure you will be full even before you finish the plate by yourself. So my suggestion is just order one plate of the kambing or chicken rice thing....and order an appetizer, Squid salad (ITS AWESOME).

and so my baby is soooo sleepy...so I told him to take some rest.

and i enjoying eating alone...the view from my seat.

Tada! he is awake! and continue eating..LOL:)) oh ya, just wanna gossip about the couple sit next table to us. Both of them were seriously so cool...like COOL COOL....they sat down, and both start taping at their own iphones or BB....and they did not talk for DAMN LONG. The food were out, they eat...they still kept quiet....and the guy speak a little...A LITTLE....and i try to eaves drop though.... but can't hear la ...BAD ME :P

We are meant for each other :)))

Eldest son, Peppi boy meets youngest brother, Porcupi :))

Meet up with sister and friends at Loudspeaker, Kota Damansara for karaoke session :) bumped into YinYin :) (L-R: Me, Yin Shaet, Valerie, Debbie sis, Bonnie, Yin Yin)

Baby don't fancy karaoke, so he is sleepy again....

and he is awake to sing a few songs. lol

Happy Ending. CHEERS :)

Cannot TELL

2011-02-09T03:56:00.002+08:00

there're things that i did not tell you
but doesn't mean they did not happen before.

i want to tell you
so badly.
but i do not want to disturb you.
i find myself naggy, very.

should tell or should not tell?

so i just tell someone else.

Yesterday Once more.

2011-01-19T00:19:00.002+08:00

all my best memories...
come back clearly to me
some can even make me cry
just like before~
it's yesterday once more..

it seems like yesterday...
but it was so far away.

cry will make me feel better?

2011-01-06T18:03:00.004+08:00

when i thought everything is going on so smoothly...

there must be...MUST BE something that stir my emotion up!

i already said how many times...i am not gona work work work...

and why you must go and tell your friend? and what ur friend will ask?

surely "why u ask me this?"

then what u will answer "nolah..for fun?"

will you answer that?!

u sure tell the story....the story of us...

when i already say...i am not gona work.....i already sacrifice so much....cry so much..stress so much....

can you please?

make me feel that is worth it.

u now telling me ....convincing me...proving me that the job is really sucks.

so what?

dint u listen?

I ALREADY SAY I AM NOT GOING TO WORK!!!!!

how will i feel?!

u know what, i will find proves, evidences....to tell, convince and prove to you that...THIS JOB ROCKS!

u know i wont.

stress for days

2011-01-06T17:55:00.003+08:00

I am so stress for days!!

for the cheer....!! mainly.

and i finally get the chance to receive the songs from my friend...and it took quite long to load until half.....and what the fuck? just one click ....everything is gone?!!!

i need the songs so urgently!! i need to send to my friend for broadcasting! they need to check the quality of the songs.. supposedly using another 2 songs, drag quite long due to cant decide of what song, and my friend not at home and send me late...all these....i get pressure from my friend...

and FINALLY! i sent to my friend...

then we changed songs.

i do not have the full version of the songs...

been calling asking msg around..stress so much..and i finally found that ...and again, problem of getting the songs, and my friend try her best send to me....

and what now?!!! because you din see properly what am i doing..why is my msn on in that computer not my laptop.......just because of your not concern...ur carelessness!

i waited for so long...all wasted!!!!

my stress back again...

so now the shooting is on sunday...why my friend want the songs a week before from me? sure got reasons right?!

and now? is thursday!!! i haven even send the songs yet! omg....im so stress ...so stress...so angry..that i can bang my head to the wall and bleed to death.

thanks

Sacrifice for love

2011-01-05T00:23:00.002+08:00

Ya. I do.

I sacrifice what I wanted in my life, what I dream of, my age, my youthfulness..
for love.

Will i get return someday?

yes, im hoping for return...

New Year with no fireworks?

2011-01-03T01:15:00.003+08:00

yea, some of u may say "nah...its alright....just fireworks, u can see it during chinese new year a...hari raya a...deepavali a....blablabla"

but its different. really different
people put on CNY, HR, D, all just normal one.

New year's fireworks is so much different!!!
they are huge, big and pretty!
some of them even have patterns like a bunga raya or something.

but i din get to see any....not even a POP this year.
even though im outside, im with someone, my love....but i still feel sad.
it is a bad start of the year? =( i really feel so sad. NOT EVEN COUNTDOWN?
yes...not even countdown.

it maybe "just another new day".
but u see...everybody....all over the wall celebrates it!

i din get to see FIREWORKS!
KILL ME LA
(#$(%*@$(*%(*@&#*(%!&#(%&@#(%

Thanks or hate facebook?

2011-01-03T01:13:00.002+08:00

Should i thank facebook or hate it of its existence?
because of facebook, u will know what a person is doing, what a person is really care of.

just like u.
u know what she he she he she he do on their pages.
eh?
how u know a?
how come u don even know what i posted on ur wall?
oh because u don check ur own page.
ok. reason acceptable.

how bout me?
oh u checked mine?
well, then how come u don see why i replied ur post on my wall?

DOT DOT DOT.

nothing to say?
im ok with it. :,(

It is Unfair

2011-01-03T01:08:00.003+08:00

It's so unfair la.
u did it last time,
and i tel u how i feel
u say "ok, i won't do it anymore"

yet, u tell me...lets start a whole new chapter again, forget the past
guess ur forget means forget everything i have said before and how i will feel

and so u did it once again,
i tell u ..."why?"
and u say "oh..ok..now i know, i won't do it again.."

same sentence cannot be used twice.
is useless. (except for i love you and thank you).

:(

and so?
how u gona deal with it and make it not to be angry
because i feel so tired to be be angry.
so stupid.
over the mistake u have done again.

but i still angry!!
and so....u SHOULD say..
"ok, why not u do it, its alright, see, im doing it also...so its fair".

this will make me feel better.

or maybe not.

because my policy is...
"NOT DOING IT".

Hard to get?

2011-01-03T01:04:00.001+08:00

Guys complain girls playing hard to get
they always say "why cant you just tell me what u want me to do?"

hello?
i did.
but u still insist to going on with ur plan? so?

play hard to get better isn't it?
you get into the game, at the end u finally know what i want,
then u will "ok ok, let's go to the mall"...or whatever.

You never listen

2010-12-25T17:00:00.001+08:00

YOu just cant follow what i say is it?!
omg
must u wait until my limit burst already only u say OKOK
wats the point saying ok when im not ok already?!!!

how many times u wanna repeat the same thing all over again?!
just fucking follow what i say la
make my fucking christmas a little better can or not?!!!!!
fuck

just listen to me laaaaaa
so hard is it?!!!!
and u don even know wat u talking
keep asking me asking me asking me the same question
STOP ASKING
KNOW OR NOT?!
SLAP

Christmas, is not Merry

2010-12-25T01:07:00.001+08:00

Every time when I'm so looking forward for my one and only Christmas Eve, (which i think is more important that Christmas day itself), It will definitely be ruined.

devastated.

Kill me.

=(

-,(

no one can ever give me a Merry Merry Christmas

I guess im the one who's having problem

Break Trust

2010-12-13T03:38:00.001+08:00

"There's nothing you can do"

That is what Me n you said.

i was hoping there is something that can really comfort me.

because i really feel that there is nth you can do.

you did it to me once.

you did it to me twice.

you know the impact n how devastated it is

you stil do it

you love challenges huh?

nothing you can say

nothing you can do

that is all come out from your mouth

maybe its true.

Each of you - Broken

2010-12-12T21:22:00.004+08:00

First is you #1

I was waiting for u whole day.

u slept for the whole day

online for only 2mins,

u wanna play game

alright, fine, go ahead

after that?

hmm...

*wait wait*

and so i call

u sound irritated by my call

oh well,

i sent u a msg saying asking why

u call n *$&%@$(%(*@%)(

I want pan mee as lunch

Another you #2 #(*%&@(*%&

saying that why eat spicy food $(*%&@(*%

going Australia still eat spicy food

At night

I crave for it again

I suggested You #3, another one...

you say 1 whole family eat pan mee a? must eat rice

You make it sounds like a rules!!

u always say "i dowan eat so much for dinner, lets eat mee"

Now u say must eat rice...=.=' WTF

You #4, another one....keep #(*($&(#$*#% about what i packed for Australia...

Then after that you can pretend nth happen....

and that You #3 say also..say i go Australia fashion show

OF course...BINGo...so RIGHT..so TRUE....u never want me to become model whatever freelancer whatever actress all these you think are bullshit...now got chance to go overseas, of course i wanna dress up prettily..DReSS TO KILL...don't u know?

I just wanna pack so much....I will hand carry...i will shop also....shop till you really drop.

FUCK MY LIFE

ALL heart breakers

Just a little bit more, and i will say yes

2010-12-05T23:10:00.004+08:00

doing a little bit more for me is not ridiculous

yes, i am asking for it...

its not ridiculous.

a Form 3 guy is capable of doing that...

he walk from his house...

to Tropicana.

to be exact, is 3 times further than the distance that im asking u to walk

and he walk like at night...i mean past 12?

he is younger

why can't you do so?

is not ridiculous.

Understanding

2010-12-05T22:26:00.002+08:00

not everything can be said.

just like when i have frustrations,

i blog.

just like when my hands are full of stuffs,

i can't even close the door,

you can see,

you help me close

don scold me.

i din do anything wrong.

u say "then tel me la (to close the door)"...

and i think "why can't u see?"...

its not like i din close the door, i will

i just have to put down my stuffs,

then i will close.

SO stop scolding me.

because you don't know whether it is a bad day for me.

i might jump down from my room.

Doomsday

2010-11-30T01:09:00.002+08:00

If you know, that you will die,

what will you do?

Today I watched "Knowing" at Astro,

its like a melancholy movie.

I feel so down after that...

We don't know 22 Dec 2012 is really the doomsday or not...

So, why not just really treasure everyone now...like really treasure...

Don't let little things upset you

Be grateful and smile :)

If is real,

we only have another year and a few days to go...

Trash Friend

2010-11-26T12:46:00.004+08:00

You just dig out the super evil side of me.

You never appreciate me.

The worst friend award goes to you.

Thank you for the good times and bad times you have given me.

I wish we'll not have any further contact.

So DON'T TOUCH ME. (but she slap me though, not face la, but its like many times and so hard)

mlm

ps: I am thinner than you, please, I know is not pain for you, but please put yourself in my 'heels'....but wait, I don't think u can fit. bleeeh :P

Burst Out #1

2010-11-25T19:34:00.004+08:00

Devil

There will be an academic calendar prepared every new year

For 2010, it stated 6-10 December will be my final exams week.

It's been so long since I sit on a plane and go a really nice trip (not 1-day or half day trip kind of thing) to Australia, definitely, its my first time there.

The date to fly over is 15 Dec.

Suddenly, out of middle of the year of no where shit, my final exams were extended for another week. I was hoping that, all my subjects will still fall on the first week, but I am sure I have did something to my college that they wanna do SUCH THING TO ME, which is, UNFORTUNATELY, all my subjects fall on the SECOND EFFIN WEEK.

I go 1 subject on 15 and another on 16, what?!

So I go n see my head of department. She stared at me for some time and finally speak

"I don't know what to tell you".

?? Like what the...

and blablabla, I gave her a letter and the prove of the air ticket and so on...

After few days, I went to see the coordinator to find out what is the decision made by the head

The decision is, I have to take that 2 particular subjects earlier, which is on the 1st week. Well, reasonable.

So I ask the coordinator, will the exam papers the same as others. She say : ohno, definitely different, and is harder.

My eyes straight away like stare at her and I say "why harder? isn't it unfair?"

Another coordinator say "what UNFAIR?~ Make up exam is like that one what..."

LIKE WHAT WHAT WHAT?!

now who's problem to extend the final exam another week and ALL my subjects fall on the second week? and i book n bought the air tickets like years ago. NOW YOU ALL DID THAT TO ME AND YOU STILL WANNA BLAME ON ME!?

The way Y-O-U answer is definitely worth few punches on your face.

So one of my subject's lecturer tell me that, MQA says that our American Degree Program MUST change our TERM system into SEMESTER system, if not our program is not approve, So that is why last minute there are changes to the final exams date.

Ok, fine, if that is the reason, why can't you negotiate with the MQA about changing this system next year rather than this year because you have already gave us the academic calendar and you have to be responsible to your own action and think about the welfare of your students!

second point, if MQA FORCES you to change the system this year, then FINE. YOU HAVE ALREADY CHANGED. But, How can you make the make up examination harder than the 'actual day exam'?

My lecturer explains to me because a lot of students abuse the make up exam and they last minute buy tickets or whatever and wants a make up exam, so the faculty make this RULE "make up exam only consists of ESSAYS and is HARDER".

but, how about people like me?! I did not abuse that make up exam. I did not buy the plane tickets after you have announced the dates of final exam!!!

I NEVER WANT TO TAKE MAKE UP EXAM IF IS WEREN'T YOUR FAULT!!!!!

Like think about it?

and so, my lecturer explains, we cannot do a slightly harder make up exam for those student who are not very valid with their reasons, and same standard for student like me who is totally valid for the reason why I have to apply for make up exam....because doing another exam paper is very hard, you need to....pass to another lecturer proofread......BLABLABLA....

Ok, WHY NOT....why not just make this year an exemption? Because MCQ suddenly pop up with this "MUST CHANGE TO SYSTEM LAW" ....OR JUST DON't APPROVE THOSE STUDENTS WITH INVALID REASONS LA!!!!!!

LIKE WHAT THE HECK. BANG MY HEAD.

Angel

Think from another perspective....

1. I get to go to Australia like not many people got the chance to go (Not very convincing)

2. I get to sit on the plane where not much people afford (eh, who says? Now Air Asia air tickets super cheap la, even baby can afford)...

3. I get to have 2 days earlier holidays than others (like I care?!)

4. I get to feel the not so spoon feeding exam feelings like what my boyfriend undergoing in his college, student crazy a lot of chapters ...(but they got tips lor)

5. My lecturer is kind enough to help me. (but how about another subject?)

.............

I just got lesser time to study ( but this is not relevant to me because i study last minute, my preference)....but i have to force myself study now, like 2 weeks before? and study harder, understand more stuffs....

AIYA. JUST SUPER SAD LA.

After so long finally WOOHOO going OVERSEAS TRIP and now this stupid thing comes up.

:,(

Waiting #4

2010-11-02T03:12:00.002+08:00

Have you seen...
teardrops on the floor
teardrops on the bed
teardrops on the keyboard
teardrops on your cheek....
that you can taste em.

your eyes r full of tears...
till you cant see everything clearly....

i am waiting,
for em to dry.
to stop.

Waiting #3

2010-11-02T02:59:00.001+08:00

i am waiting,
waiting the time pass
i told you all,
i am a professional in wasting time,
see :)
from 10pm -12am, i wait
12am-2am, i cry
2am-now....i cry.

because i don't know what to do.

i just wait.
wait for something nice to happen to me.
because i have already gave you something nice.

will you give me?

i am waiting.

Waiting #2

2010-11-02T02:56:00.001+08:00

i can't do anything at this moment

because friends are important,
you won't scold them
but you scold your love ones,
and you used to tell them "you are more important".

can you don't do that do me?

i am waiting

Waiting #1

2010-11-02T02:55:00.004+08:00

why sometimes,
i got red eyes,
when i see some guys,
they put in effort,
to design their profile pic with their love ones.

can u do that to me?

i am waiting.

Quote

2010-09-06T20:04:00.001+08:00

You don't need to be politic

Just be real

Tell her how you feel

-from Drop Dead Diva Season 2 Episode 11

Quote

2010-09-06T20:02:00.001+08:00

I love you when the day is new

I love you when the sky is blue

and when the sun is about to set

I will tell you you're an idiot!

HAHA :)

-from Drop Dead Diva Season 2 Episode 11

Love Quote

2010-09-02T01:21:00.000+08:00

"How do you know a person loves you for real and that he means 'I love you' from his heart?"

"You'll know it naturally, we were given a heart to love, so naturally our hearts can feel the love given by others. When someone really loves you, you'll love the person in return unconditionally."

-from the book 'CallieRose' by Beatrix Charissa Tan

as i continue reading the story, i feel so touched. I can feel the 'romanticness' of Callie and James though they are not together. hmm..I LIKE

Love Quote

2010-09-02T01:20:00.000+08:00

‎"i think every girl deserves to get all the attention she can get from her boyfriend", Tia.

-from the book 'CallieRose' by Beatrix Charissa Tan.

Love Note

2010-08-22T16:18:00.000+08:00

its sweet

thanks

Love Quote

2010-08-21T01:35:00.002+08:00

"Look at me, You are the most important thing to me, I love you so much, I don't ever want to see you sad, whenever you are sad, i will be very sad, I want you to be happy always, please don't push me away"....

Say it with full emotion, some tears in the eyes....

can u do that not? lol...

Ecoba, PJ Trade Centre

2010-08-19T18:05:00.004+08:00

Don't waste my make up.

so I took N times of pictures (myself) before headed to Eco Bar

First time at Ecoba (click click), like the environment :)

Every Monday, they will have this competition for 20 participants.

100 shots of Carlsberg to be down in 100 minutes

each shot each minute.

whoever who throw up, spit, did not manage to finish a shot in a minute - disqualified.

The young ones.

L-R : Me, Shaun, Abbie Sister, Taiwan Shaun, Toby, Debbie Sister

Guys :)

Girls

The Champion in Red - Julian

My friend in blue- Danial

A smile, A hug, before i leave to Penang the next day.

Joyce's 13th Birthday (7th August 2010)

2010-08-19T15:29:00.002+08:00

Miss Joyce Chu Birthday falls on the 7th of August.

Its a Saturday night, as usual, we usually will have reunion dinner,

most of them will chill at my house after dinner

At the mean time, we celebrate Joyce's birthday

Part of the cousins :)

The fruit cake is yummy!

Joyce is one year OLDER, but PRETTIER! :)

Cousins forever.

XOXO.

Give up

2010-08-13T01:12:00.004+08:00

i give up

in persuading u to comment check look at your fb

3 days

u din comment on it

but to some other ppl videos status and etc

i bet u don even know there's a post here.

Hui Zhi's 21st Birthday (31st July 2010)

2010-08-06T14:30:00.006+08:00

Hui Zhi's 21st Birthday celebration dinner at Muse, Jaya One

all of us were so hungry

the first dish is 17'' Half Moon Pizza RM 36

Suppose to have beef bacon in it

but we change it to chicken, as Woan Shing the retarded don eat beef. :)

Quite a nice pizza, crispy at the end, slightly soft at the front.

Hope they give more greens though.

2nd dish, Cheese Lamb Macaroni RM 26

very cheesy,

don't have much lamb taste

3rd dish, Cheese Baked Portobello RM 18

love the huge mushrooms! :D

slightly spicy. SLIGHT.

4th Dish, Pacific Clam Vongole RM30

spicy olive oil spaghetti with clams.

Slightly spicy.

Just the three dishes (excluded cheese baked portobello, cause its Woan Shing's one)

5 of us are full, and we can't even finish them

imagine if you order one dish per person.

so these are the cakes for Hui Zhi

the tiny cupcake in front is the first cake we present to her,

to let her feel that "eh? why my cake so small one"...

lol, manatau she din feel anything

cheh -.- mission fail.

***Happy 21st Hui Zhi aka Zombie Raybit***

all of us

(left-right) Me the apple, Ying the hamster, Hui Zhi the zombie raybit, Adeline the raymond raybit, Woan Shing the retarded raybit

(yeah, lots of raybit=rabbit right...lol)

Before birthday girl arrived, camwhore in the toilet

(FYI, we took a lot of pictures, its like taking personal picture album in the toilet ==)

with birthday girl :)

Flower <3

Pictures of me :)

Spend my night with Shaun

watching .....forgot what movie at his house

listen to the conversation between his dad n him

that makes me non-stop laughing.

such a humorous dad.

29th & 30th July 2010

2010-08-06T14:09:00.004+08:00

29th July 2010

Went to Chow Yang night market with Charissa + Sarah + Shaun

realized that camera is not with me.

anyway, we had a great time at the night market :)

30th July 2010

went to One Utama buy Hui Zhi's present with Wenny

Woan Shing & Adeline suppose to come along but couldn't make it.

Both of us walk from new wing to old wing to new wing

from Bonita to Diva to Accessorize to Diva to Bonita

Finally bought a set of towels from Aussino + 5 stars necklace from Bonita.

When I first saw White Apple

2010-08-06T14:01:00.004+08:00

30th June

"super jam wei, im stil stuck at the tunnel here~!"

"just don't go gym, come my house ok, it will worth your time~"

"har...but..i wanna go gym! but so jam...aiyo >.<"

"just come my house k, i got something to give u..."

"ok....*reluctant*"

Reach

he says

"actually i have nothing to give u la, just wan you to come my house"

"-.- ok" *sit down and study for exam*

*surprise*

"omg! how much u buy?!"

"cannot tell you... :) "

"do you know just now in the Poh Kong there, i was telling you come my house because is worth it right? then the sales lady was smiling there, hehe"

A white apple

around my neck.

Thank you :)

2010-08-06T02:00:00.000+08:00

受委屈

还是因为我不值得同情？